BADWOLF

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the garrison.
One day, I will tell all of the stories about you lot.
Like the one where before she Fell, Anna was popular and respected as a commander, not just among her garrison but among the Host as a whole, despite her growing fascination with Earth. The one where after she went, it fell to Castiel and Uriel to take up the mantle and pick up the pieces of command between them.
Or the one where all of you were fundamentally changed by Hell, because that’s what Hell does to everything that enters it, even if you had no idea at the time; not just Castiel, but Uriel too (he sees things there that transform his resentment of humanity into full-blown disgust; maybe Lucifer was right about them after all?), and Balthazar, whose small, long-held doubts grow stronger after the experience, though he still doesn’t dare to act on them, and so the shadow of Hell lies over you all in a million different ways that none of you quite understand
Or maybe the one where after Castiel is pulled back to Heaven for ‘re-education’ Balthazar speaks out on his behalf not just because Castiel is a brother-in-arms and they all know what his fate entails, but because Castiel has always been the most faithful of them, the one who follows the spirit of the order if not always the letter; so if Cas was doing something Heaven doesn’t approve of, surely that has to mean something is wrong? Except then Balthazar has never spoken of his doubts, not even after Hell made them grow, because he knows what happens to angels that do and he very much likes existing,
so when they rebuke him he falls quiet
Perhaps the one where Inias is the one most stricken by the revelation that Uriel betrayed them, because he’s always been the one who feels losses more deeply than the others do; the one where Hester was also shaken because she and Uriel had shared opinions on many things (including Castiel’s problem with liking Dean; they already lost a sister, a commander, to the humans; Hester doesn’t want to lose another)

Or the one where after Lucifer’s rising, the scattered remnants of their garrison had to deal with the whispers from the rest of the Host, because by that point their garrison had produced three traitors in Heaven’s eyes (two fallen angels and one more who had wanted to follow Lucifer of all people); Inias tries to intercede on Anna’s behalf when she is brought up for ‘re-education’ herself, but Balthazar and Hester stop him because there’s no point, all they can do is follow their orders and try not to lose anyone else; Rachel has to hold her tongue whenever Castiel or Anael come up as a topic of conversation among the other angels; and meanwhile everyone wonders:
Is there something wrong with them?
Did their Father just create an entire garrison of angels wrong?

the garrison.

One day, I will tell all of the stories about you lot.

Like the one where before she Fell, Anna was popular and respected as a commander, not just among her garrison but among the Host as a whole, despite her growing fascination with Earth. The one where after she went, it fell to Castiel and Uriel to take up the mantle and pick up the pieces of command between them.

Or the one where all of you were fundamentally changed by Hell, because that’s what Hell does to everything that enters it, even if you had no idea at the time; not just Castiel, but Uriel too (he sees things there that transform his resentment of humanity into full-blown disgust; maybe Lucifer was right about them after all?), and Balthazar, whose small, long-held doubts grow stronger after the experience, though he still doesn’t dare to act on them, and so the shadow of Hell lies over you all in a million different ways that none of you quite understand

Or maybe the one where after Castiel is pulled back to Heaven for ‘re-education’ Balthazar speaks out on his behalf not just because Castiel is a brother-in-arms and they all know what his fate entails, but because Castiel has always been the most faithful of them, the one who follows the spirit of the order if not always the letter; so if Cas was doing something Heaven doesn’t approve of, surely that has to mean something is wrong? Except then Balthazar has never spoken of his doubts, not even after Hell made them grow, because he knows what happens to angels that do and he very much likes existing,

so when they rebuke him he falls quiet

Perhaps the one where Inias is the one most stricken by the revelation that Uriel betrayed them, because he’s always been the one who feels losses more deeply than the others do; the one where Hester was also shaken because she and Uriel had shared opinions on many things (including Castiel’s problem with liking Dean; they already lost a sister, a commander, to the humans; Hester doesn’t want to lose another)

Or the one where after Lucifer’s rising, the scattered remnants of their garrison had to deal with the whispers from the rest of the Host, because by that point their garrison had produced three traitors in Heaven’s eyes (two fallen angels and one more who had wanted to follow Lucifer of all people); Inias tries to intercede on Anna’s behalf when she is brought up for ‘re-education’ herself, but Balthazar and Hester stop him because there’s no point, all they can do is follow their orders and try not to lose anyone else; Rachel has to hold her tongue whenever Castiel or Anael come up as a topic of conversation among the other angels; and meanwhile everyone wonders:

Is there something wrong with them?

Did their Father just create an entire garrison of angels wrong?